One.Stop.Go Ceritalah!: November 2010

Jumaat, 26 November 2010

The Dolls of Love

Another touching story, that things might not be what they seem. Surprises and the sweetest of them comes in small packages. And this story shows just that, don't underestimate the littlest of gestures for they might actually be the ones which you will remember for life.

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him.

Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…

“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment
grabbing me.

“No… I am going to meet a friend…”

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.
He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…

Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.Then I shouted… “Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…

After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street… with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave these to me… Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.

Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!

I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry”
He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…

Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!”
HONK~!!
“Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me.
That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person… I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…

“One…two… three…”
That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty
five…”
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…

“I love you~, I love you~”
I dropped the dolls,shocked.

“I….lo..ve…you??”
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

“I love you~ I love you~”
It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”

“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you… Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much…

“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…

For that… and for that reason… to me… it became courage… to live a beautiful life….

Khamis, 25 November 2010

Meaning of Roses

Do you know?
When you give someone one roses or two or more, there are some meaning on it? Let's check it!

1 Roses - Exceptional love all concentrated on you.
2 Roses - Two of us deeply in love.
3 Roses - I love you.
6 Roses - I want to be yours.
9 Roses - Love each other eternally.
11 Roses - You are the one I love most in my life.
12 Roses - Satisfactory union and mutual affinity.
13 Roses - Secret admirer.
24 Roses - Remember fondly every moment(24 hours cannot forget you).
33 Roses - Saying "I love you" with PROFOUND LOVE.
36 Roses - Feeling romantic attachment because you come to me.
44 Roses - Constant unchangeable pledge.
50 Roses - This is "Regretless Love".
56 Roses - My love.
66 Roses - Successful love affair.
99 Roses - Love with understanding makes love eternal.
100 Roses - Harmonious union in a century, remain a devoted couple 'till ripe-old age.
101 Roses - No other love but you.
108 Roses - Please marry me!
111 Roses - Eternal love.
123 Roses - Free love.
144 Roses - Loving you day and night eternally.
365 Roses - Thinking of you everyday, love you everyday.
999 Roses - Everlasting and eternal love.
1001 Roses - Faithful love, 'till forever

"Love is like a jigsaw puzzle. Only one person can find the missing peice"

Permotoran- Memandu ketika Hujan

Apa khabar semua? Okey as u all know,sekarang ni hujan asyik turun je tidak kira di waktu siang atau pun malam. Haritu masa travel dari KL-Perlis boleh dikatakan hujan je memanjang,cuak jugak rasanya. Tapi tak mengapa, gue ade tips yang boleh dipakai dari sumber yang boleh diguna pakai. Takde lah nanti gelabah tak tentu pasal kat highway mahupun di atas jalan-raya nanti

Terdapat tiga aspek sebagai panduan jika berhadapan dengan situasi sedemikian. Aspek pertama berkaitan kenderaan yang dipandu, iaitu:
1)Pastikan tiada kebocoran pada bahagian bawah kenderaan.
2)Semua pintu mempunyai dakapan getah (seal) yang baik.
3)Pastikan tiada kebocoran pada bahagian enjin, kotak gear, galas dan bearing. Ini kerana air boleh memasuki bahagian yang bocor akibat tekanan arus tinggi dan ketika meredah jalan dinaiki air.
4)Pastikan sistem klac, sistem brek serta brek tangan di dalam keadaan baik.
5)Pastikan keadaan bunga tayar yang baik untuk cengkaman sepenuhnya.
6)Pengelap (wiper), hon dan sistem elektrikal iaitu bahagian lampu depan dan lampu kenderaan mestilah berfungsi dengan baik.

Aspek kedua berkaitan langkah yang perlu diambil oleh pemandu ketika melalui jalan yang dinaiki air, iaitu:
1)Beri laluan kepada kenderaan berat dan anggarkan ketinggian air yang dilalui dengan melihat had tinggi tayar.
2)Sekiranya paras air dibawah satu kaki, pemanduan boleh dilakukan tetapi pemandu perlu memandu secara perlahan. Ini bagi mengelakkan percikkan air membasahi enjin khususnya bahagian sistem penyalaan.
3)Elakkan memandu laju kerana ia boleh menyebabkan bahagian enjin dibasahi air dan mengenai pengguna jalanraya lain, khususnya penunggang motosikal dan pejalan kaki.
Selepas meredah jalan dinaiki air, elakkan terus memandu laju kerana sistem brek tidak berfungsi sepenuhnya berikutan permukaan brek yang basah.

Berikut adalah beberapa teknik untuk mengeringkan brek dan mengujinya selepas dibasahi air:
1)Gunakan gear 1 dan 2 bagi kenderaan menggunakan sistem gear manual dan gear 1 bagi sistem automatik.
2)Tekan pedal brek serentak dengan pedal minyak bagi menghasilkan kepanasan pada permukaan brek.
3)Hadkan kelajuan antara 5 hingga 15 kmj dan jarakkan kenderaan anda dengan kenderaan dihadapan. Proses ini akan mengeringkan permukaan brek
4)Uji sistem brek pada kelajuan 20 kmj.
5)Uji tindakan di atas berulang kali pada jarak 20 hingga 30 meter.
6)Sekiranya brek gagal berfungsi, ulangi proses diatas. Selepas itu uji lagi sistem brek sehingga prestasinya memuaskan sebelum memandu laju